so then what is this?

24Oct08

well.

deadline for S/U ends today.
i got 4/10 for my latest 203 quiz.
(funny how they call it a quiz. it’s like the epitome of sugar coating things)

so 1st year, 1st sem, take 1, screwed.
GPA sucks mans.

i am whiny. and annoying (:

haha sigh. i’m just really… drained in a way i guess.

but i MUST tell you guys about crossroads last night.
you have no idea how great crusades has been for me this past sem.
DG and crossroads, even though i couldn’t always make it were just amazing for me. coming to a place where i won’t be judged, where i can draw strength from Him, where i don’t have to worry about anything etc etc. and it’s a super nice feeling to live when you know that you’re being prayed for.

last night’s crossroads was on deuteronomy 8. Julianna talked about how so often, us christians, in our time of ‘lack’ we focus so much on our shortcomings and all the things that God is NOT giving us/keeping from us when instead we should be focusing on all the things He has ALREADY done for us.

that kinda hit me because i know i’ve been really drained this sem, and pulled through alot of trials and temptations and difficult times. and looking back, there were so many BETTER ways of approaching these times. of dealing with those difficult times.

and then on the other side of the spectrum, i had to get caught up in the ‘my life is worse than yours’ game, constantly matrying myself and complaining about how tired i am, how stretched i am, how i’m always so busy.

it’s stupid really. i mean like looking back, during these times are actually the times when you can really show what a great testimony of God you are. it’s like imagine they see this christian who is going through such a tough time, but yet she’s constantly positive, not complaining at all, and still being able to reach out etc etc. and what did i do? i whined, i cried, i complained, i lost my temper.

so yea, last night’s last crossroads really hit me, but i’m so so glad that it did though. the remaining sem and next year promises to be tough. but i think this time, i’m more prepared to face it. (: after all, in any circumstance we can always cast our anxieties on HIM.

thanks Lord. You’re AWESOME.

 

so then what is this?
this is the start of sem1- sem 2, year 1, take TWO.

let’s go.

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