letting Him lead.

Just came back from CCC FOC ‘09 (I’m always amused by the amount of letters the Campus Crusade for Christ Freshmen Orientation Camp result in). 

It was good (: Probably the most ’slack’ camp out of the 6 I’m going for this hols. (I realise I feel compelled to post in proper capital letters and everything when I post here. The small i looks weird.) It was also a nice time for me to REST. As all things are with God’s timing, this was perfect timing as well. 

This year, I’m gonna let Him lead. I’m going to close my eyes, and just look to Him, it’s time to stop getting distracted, and swayed by the things of this world. I also hope of courage to stand up for it, and a changing within me. So that I can become even more effective for Him. 

I’m a very flawed person. I know that all too well. I want to surrender all of it to Him and let Him change me, renew me. (: 

Year 2, sem 2 promises to be difficult. A lot of people are telling me that my 2nd year in CS is the hardest year for CS students. But I’ll leave it to Him. (: He knows what’s best for me. 

Yupps, my girls were great, got to know so much more people at much deeper level this camp. It was awesome. (: Haha and Sarah Phua and I lost and got back our bridge powers. (: hahaha! 

An exciting year of crusades up ahead. 

And the lines have been drawn again, it’s always going to be a struggle to live in this world and not be of it. I don’t want to push away the people who are on the other side of those lines, how does one stay relevant in this world? 

Looking forward to thursdays to come (:

effective for You.

 

sleepless nights

dear God, 

i have decisions to be made
and i don’t know which to make
i am finding it harder to say no to some
and i know the world is calling me many different ways.
but the path i want to choose, is the one You intended for me. the one where i can be the most effective for You. what good will saying yes to everything be, if i can only do a half-hearted job at it.
dear Lord, take away this need to please people
take away this fear of disappointing others.
i will have no other gods but You. 
guide me Lord, 
i want to choose the one that You want me to be in
You know best.
give me also the strength to say no,
to face the disappointment of others with the knowledge that i’m pleasing You.

amen.

the 3 months flew by

taken with the goldenhalf sometime in may/june 2009

so the 3 months flew by pretty quickly. and here i am making another attempt at updating this blog a little more. (: 

 

so a few decisions i’ve made over the 3 months that flew by… 

1. i want to be a little more dedicated to photography. i want to take nicer shots and learn how to use a dslr properly. 

2. i will apply for instep/gip for year2 sem2, hopefully to either UDUB of somewhere in australia. 

3. i am going to be VP’s new editor which is partially scaring the shit outta me, but i’m gonna take this step.

4. i plan to cook more in hall. (: 

5. and i intend to balance my life better by learning the art of saying NO. 

 

yup (: i think there’s more. but my mind isn’t thinking right now. 

anyway! i just counted. my exams ended on April 22nd. 

which means up till today (inclusive), i’ve had exactly 90 days of no school. 

 

of that 90 days, 

; i spent 11 days at 4 different camps.

; i spent 12 days in 3 different countries.

; had cousins fly in from 2 different countries.

; got my driving license (:

; went to the zoo

; attended 1 wedding

; spent far too much money. 

 

and alot more la, but i can’t remember right now. 

 

this blog was meant to be a devotional blog. but i felt i had to throw in this random entry in here all in the spirit of updating this blog more often. 

 

i do however enjoy contemplating how much time i wasted during the past 90 days and how much of that time did i actually commit and spend with Him. 

which is shamefully not much.

 

so yes. here’s to a little accountability on myself. 

i will update this blog with ideas i have from my hopefully soon to be more daily QTs and experiences with Him. (: